💌 monthly round-up: september
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9ofcupsunnecessary amounts of self-reflection time—this month was probably a solid... 8 out of 10?
NAVIGATION
🍿 books, movies, tv & variety
see how comfortable i am shoving all four of these into one section? that's how little media i consumed.
i actually didn't read a single fucking book, nor did i watch any tv (that's standard behavior for me though tbh), nor did i pay attention to any particular variety and only gave a shit about a single survival show, so this is actually a list of things i'd like to get around to at some point. naturally because i'm me this likely means i won't be touching them at all and will simply yearn from a distance while slowly absorbing information about aforementioned items on my wish list until i know enough about it to not be interested anymore. so basically if you see something on this list don't expect me to get around to it anytime soon
✅ things i actually did watch
🔜 things i'd like to get around to within the century
i wish i could get over my silly inability to actually watch things because it's annoying! i'd love to sit down and understand what my friends are talking about instead of being likeeee "LOLZ! no clue. <3" but also i seriously can't watch things because i feel like i'm wasting SO MUCH TIME if that makes sense... Did you guys know the mixture of adhd and anxiety can kill 400 amaltheas at any given moment? because it's true.
it's why i can only watch movies in a theater tbh. even with tv shows i'm like, There Are a Billion Other Things I Could be Doing Right Now, even if one of the billion things is just like STEP ONE: fuck around on social media while stressing out over everything you actually have to do. one day i'll get over myself but it probably won't be today! or tomorrow! or any day for the rest of 2021!
🎸 girls we are literally kpop fans (music)
⚡️ TOTAL SCROBBLES: 3,091
⚡️AVG SCROBBLES PER DAY: 103TOP ARTISTS
TOP TRACKS
actually a little speechless at how many times i managed to listen to hit song So WhY by up-and-coming rookie girl group Purple Kiss like what the hell went on for THAT to happen... seriously though it's SUCH a good song to me in that i can put it on repeat for hours and not get bored once. you WILL catch me lacking every time chaein starts the chorus off literally don't talk to me about it
my favorite girl groups (fromis_9, stayc, purple kiss and itzy) all came back this month which was a lot of serotonin for ME<3 but i'm so happy about fromis and stayc getting their first wins. music show wins aren't important etc etc but fromis have seriously been fighting in the trenches for their fucking LIVES for how fucking long now guys i really can't believe it. and THEY'RE SO TALENTED TOO IDGI!!! T__T anyone reading this needs to stan fromis if they don't as soon as possible or i'm going to die right now—just be like perfect kani who i care so so bad. btw i can't even remember if i discussed this in my august round-up but pledis taking over fromis so far has actually been pretty good like they have a WEVERSE... a way to COMMUNICATE with them in case they get thrown back in the dungeon... that's crazy. gotta settle for the bare minimum but i just hope it's actually consistent :') knowing pledis though... well we'll just have to wait and see.
ateez also had a comeback but i seriously don't care for deja vu like... at all. and even though i prefer eternal sunshine by far, i'm generally just disappointed by what atz gave us this time around, and the only song i really truly enjoy is rocky (which feels like hit song WIN 2.0 yfm). i don't think any of the songs are necessarily bad but both deja vu and eternal sunshine don't feel like proper title tracks at all... and the album didn't even come CLOSE to the fireworks one.
it's fine though! you know why? because we got this:
LIKE WE HAD TO SACRIFICE SO MUCH (read: san and wooyoung) TO GET THIS... he's so beautiful we seriously need to start being SEONGHWAFANS... speaking of woosan why did kq do them like that 😭 it's still so embarrassing to me what the hell especially after san pink hair and wooyoung's gender moment... LMFAOO i can't. making san look like a little boy while he's turning into satan's nephew on stage is a hatecrime i may never get over especially when he's given us other amazing hairstyles like wonderland/answer. baby i'll get you out of there keep breathing if you need help
i don't remember most of the comebacks that happened this month actually. but these are my rankings for the albums/title tracks i listened to this month:
girls... WHY did purple kiss achieve amal-tier AOTY within their first comeback.
i'm actually surprised at how well this album works out (ftr my rankings are so why >> zombie > cast pearls before swine > twinkle > 2am > zzz) because i wasn't super impressed with their debut—ponzona is a boring song to me (in fact i haven't listened to it since it came out xx) and the only song i still listen to is skip skip. so it feels GOOD that they have a solid sound within this comeback with an EXTREMELY catchy title track that i'm in danger of blasting and singing along to at any moment. tfw you can't wait to get home so you can play kpop in your car... :sobs: we're really in it now i'm never going to be free of this disease
i also like that it feels as though pk are following in oneus' footsteps with the no diggity to black mirror / ponzona to zombie-bie-bie-bie pipeline parallels YKNOW... not to compare them because i feel like purple kiss will hopefully be more famous than oneus are currently (no offense guys but this is just pure manifestation i need everyone to see the power yuki holds) but what is up with rbw groups and their flawless fucking discogs. anyone else thinking about ONEWE? they're insane.
i also enjoyed stayc's album SO MUCH? like i mean that's probably obvious because i listened to stereotype over 300 times but i think slayc are really slaying. it's been forever since i've seen a group with vocal colors that blend perfectly altogether, because even with purple kiss i'm like: Some of you stand out way too much and need to STOP singing after dosie because it's jarring. but slayc and fromis? the vocals are HARMONIOUS. chef's kiss actually. (are the SLAYC DYNAMIX nearly as good though...? minus sumin/sieun and seeun/yoon/isa triangulating aka why_is_isa_the_third i cannot provide you an answer for this that would be friendly.)
anyway my stereotype album ranking is definitely stereotype > i'll be there > slow down > complex. complex is a song i haven't listened to much tbh. actually i just checked and i've listened to it 7 times throughout the past month which is like Ok it probably shuffled but i still like it i promise... sorry but i'm literally just guy who can't get over i'll be there's isa/sieun chorus like YOU'RE KIDDING ME. i like that they let the "softer" vocals of stayc have their moment! like yes jayoon can kill those high notes with her power vocals and awful hairstyles but she's ALSO versatile enough to do her own thing in lower tones alongside sumin and yeeun and i like that a lot. it's just vibes
wrt loser=lover — absolutely top 5 kpop songs of the year, but at this point i'm honestly so detached from txt that it took me a while to get around to listening to it in the first place. and stray kids' album was okay, but definitely not my favorite thing from them. domino and ssick definitely take the top spots for me! idk it wasn't a particularly memorable comeback but that's probably because i'm seriously sick of skz doing some weird racist shit every few MONTHS at this point i can't believe i used to be a shooter for bang chan in 2019 like that's a level of self-disrespect i hope i'll never hit again (< guy who makes jokes about heeseung saying nigga). but also KFLKDSJFLJWELJF I'M STILL A LINOFAN 😭 it's called hypocrisy and only i am allowed to practice it.
itzy's comeback was um... it was okay. the bsides are definitely better. and sunmi's was also okay but i hope she never raps again that shit was embarrassing as hell to listen to. idec if she saw the hate she was getting like NOT EVERYONE CAN RAP AND THAT'S OKAY!!!
enhypen comeback soon btw. which like
WE GENUINELYYYY HAVE NOT HAD ENOUGH TIME BTWN ENHA_COVID_ERA AND ENHA_COMEBACK_ERA... i mean (as aforementioned sunny later pointed out) i know they're literally athletic young men but the turnaround time was so fast that i simply forgot they even got sick in september despite the last member being confirmed healthy like... what. two weeks ago? i don't even know man. i had to think so hard last night because i was like "well there's no way it happened THIS month... but it probably wasn't early august... Wait oh my god." that being said i'm excited for the comeback and i hope they stay healthy!!
scylla concept photos are my favorite for the record... legitimately kinda disappointed that they chose odysseus as the main one but i guess they wanted to stick to the summer vibe despite it being OCTOBER 😐 like exercise some common sense if you're going to delay the comeback so that it's closer to halloween than Actual Summertime let the concept photos reflect that... but maybe i seriously just have scylla_jungwon-itis because he's so beautiful in that green they put him in. AND SUNOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND NIKI!!!!!!!!!! shaking and sobbing as we speak.
wow i literally only talked about kpop. that's fine i barely listened to non-kpop anyway somehow. i forayed into caught a viiiibe babie are u comin for the riiiide but then i realized the original song actually fucking sucks and also why is willow's family like that? girl who doesn't know shit about western celebs: LOLLL JADA SMITH IS SO WEIRD GUYS... anyway that's enough for this section.
✏️ writing
AKA... lack thereof because fic-wise i didn't post anything besides ch2 of solar return and that was literally on september 1st so it's been a whole month. and like i understand that a lot of people are used to Taking a While but that could not be me i'm seriously just someone who likes to post quickly and be done with it and this fic idea is something i genuinely love to talk and think about, so hopefully as i get settled into school/come home from my trip i can get ch3 out :') i'm okay with taking some time on it though because well. i started school. so.
i've also had other fic ideas that i want to work on, but for some reason being inspired enough to want to write has been hard? idk why i'm saying 'fsr' it's because i'm stressed and tired 😭 fr out here like "how can i POSSIBLY write fic when i have to write an essay for my freshman-level theology class!!!" like girl first of all you are in a class with mostly first-years so shut the fuck up. second of all... shut the fuck up.
i want to write so much though. i'm thinking something for kinktober tbh like there's definitely no way in hell i'd be able to do multiple prompts, but hopefully it'll be a good way to ease my brain back into writing nsfw stuff? not that i necessarily want to stick to JUST writing hornyfic again the way i used to for a solid few months earlier in the year but i just think... jay and jake—[I'M SHOT] well you get my point. there are Thoughts that need to be put into fic.
au-wise i have a whole list of shit i'd love to get around to within the century. idk why but i'm just so obsessed with pjo enha au right now thanks to the current comeback vibe and like i knowww being into percy jackson as an adult is literally cringe and etc but i can't help it. i feel like pjo aus are super unreliable because everyone thinks their own opinion on godly parents is the correct one but i'm here to prove you all wrong with the simple fact that i'm actually the only correct person ever:
when no one understands that sometimes a reader has to be wrong so that i can continue to be right
like what is there to say about this list... it's accurate it's real it provides for character development in some aspects (aka sunghoon_ares I'm Not a Fighter arc which is literally so frankzhang it's actually hilarious but i'm choosing not to unpack that for now). TBHHHH idk why i'm discussing this au like it's something i'm ACTUALLY going to write. because unless my reverse manifestation works it isn't going to happen. but it's fun to think about!
speaking of aus that must not be named i literally have a jakehoon dq9 au in here wherein sunghoon's a traveling minstrel and jake's a solitary ranger with like multiple wolf pets. and i'm going to be fully real with you guys that au is just there as a backdrop to copious amounts of hypothetical porn but it's also about the mental image of sunghoon in a dancer's dress because i'm psychologically ill. and the rightsunghoon of it all [i'm shot again] it's just... well i hope it writes itself someday.
tldr: i hope i post a fic and/or update solar return soon because this drought is driving the girls (me) crazyyyyy. i'm about to renounce my own writer status at this point!
dreamwidth-wise though i've definitely ummm posted quite a bit:
WELL. I GUESS WE KNOW WHY I DIDN'T WRITE FIC NOW
this is definitely collectively over 10k words especially bc the enha ship post was so fucking long and i'm just. GIRLLLL... i'm a dw user i can't help it. seriously though i think i'm enjoying this site especially now that i've moved accounts for reasons and i'm like. who is going to stop me from being unhinged!!!!! until i eventually die i'm going to continue being this way and you all have to deal with it.
in fact i have two extremely long posts in the works lol... one for my favorite tropes and one about vedic nakshatras for infodumping purposes and to help my fwiends out as we study essentially without resources because everything is biased and/or 1-dimensional. of course because i have so much school i might be slow on these! but that's fine i'm having fun and that's what matters :) [my hands, sick and tired of all the typing: Mother please take just one fucking break...]
🏫 school
from august monthly round-up:
THE RUMORS ARE TRUE: AMAL IS ON HER LAST YEAR OF NURSING SCHOOL❗️actually this is something so surreal to me still like &$&#$*#@ i can't believe it but i probably should start believing it because i've literally been in colorado for my nursing class FOR TWO WEEKS NOW. LOLLL IT'S JUST CRAZY TO ME
when i say i've been stressed for over a year and a half now trying to make sure i graduate on time i'm being fully serious. and for the record that isn't a worry that'll magically disappear—i still have to get a 78% or higher on all of my classes—but like... it just feels good to be at a point where i'm confident i can do well if i just Work Hard (a foreign concept to me but STILL!!) lol. which i guess subscribes to a capitalistic mindset but :/ i just want to move out. so... yeah.
anyway being in colorado has been interesting? and by that i mean extremely boring because there's not much to do unless you wanna do outdoorsy stuff of which i have no interest in because like. we're doing clinical rotations you are NOT gonna catch me slippin on a hiking trip both literally and spiritually yfm. lol so my daily schedule has consisted of getting coffee and either fucking around or attempting to get work done. what really makes life good is the fact that i'm not with my family (even though my mom's still being a pain in the ass<3)... such a breath of fresh air i'm seriously not ready to go back yet!
otherwise... i've got two essays and two quizzes to do this weekend 😅 should probably be doing that instead of typing this but i'd like to get it out of the way. i say this like i wouldn't just work on other dw posts if i didn't have this one to do
🌻 the vibes
like i said this month was an 8/10 and i'm like... kind of weirded out by how september went for me in general? like there were definitely downsides and i think that if anyone else had the month i had they'd rate it lower than an 8 but because i'm me aka girl who had the most stressful summer ever september was a full W for me TBH
this overlaps into the school section ofc but the fact that we get an in-person experience is really nice to me because well. i'm a senior who would like to experience normalcy for at least one semester—but that being said i'm still deeply worried we're going to go back online ofc especially because i literally got a contact tracing notification JUST YESTERDAY telling me i might've come into contact with someone who tested positive and it's just like damn 😭😭😭 not even a whole month without a covid scare? although tbh as i told koko i'm surprised we made it this far considering it's like three people to a hotel room and we're literally working in a hospital... screams it was bound to happen at some point. but that being said i got tested early this morning so i hope i'm in the clear :')
of course a majority of the reason as to why i want to stay in-person as long as possible is because i actually managed to make a shit ton of acquaintances and a couple of friends (labeled as such only because i have a #criteria for friendships lolz) because there's a pretty big somali + muslim + hijabi population at this school and all the bipoc here are focused on making SURE they don't make any white friends which is hilarious... like i realized this the other night but i also haven't made a single white friend yet and that's beautiful to me.
my entire travel group (consisting of 6 people in total) is somali and that's beautiful to me but there's already been enough drama to fracture us into two groups aka Hotel Room 1 and Hotel Room 2 LOLLLL i really like the two girls i'm with though. and like... well if you've paid any attention to my existence for the past few weeks you'll know about my AWFUL and mostly-mutual crush on one of the girls which is like &@$#JDJSLGHSLS i won't get into it today. just know i'm currently thinking of her as always❤️ But anyway.
it just feels great to have people i can RELATE to and TALK to without fearing i'm being too different or whatever like that is SUUUUCH a cringe emotion to express especially considering i can't see myself being friends with 90% of these girls in the long-term but damn. the friends i HAVE made have been great so far and that's nice to me!
also i briefly mentioned coffee in the school section and well...
everyone on friend tl: ohmagawd amal's new coffee fixation is SOOO CUTE 🥺🥺
me: SO BECOMING ADDICTED TO CAFFEINE IS ENDEARING TO YOU?
no but i've actually found a life hack to drinking coffee and it only took an entire 21 years of my LIFE to get around to this discovery. the life hack in question is literally just making my coffee as sweet as possible for the record so it's less of a life hack and more of a life destroyer and also i seriously need to stop drinking this nearly every day but... i can't. i almost considered getting it again yesterday guys my crush had to be like "GIRL WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU" ldmslkjfwljwh. and for the record i got her into coffee too but she thinks i'm a piece of shit for liking it iced.
my order, you ask? [smiles nervously] grande iced vanilla pumpkin spice latte with extra caramel drizzle.
overall though i feel like i'm able to enjoy life a LITTLE more even if i'm still super stressed out lolz. praying for a negative result on my covid test, and a good october in general! i say this like mercury isn't currently retrograde in my 12th house but what can we do. at least it objectively isn't as bad as the six month aries mars retrograde we had last fall. find solace in the little things, my friends!
for now i'll be mourning the fact that my homoerotic shared_space 2wk trip with my crush and some other girl (JK I LOVE HER TOO) is coming to a close... it was good while it lasted.
happy spooky szn! :D
when life gives you lemons... drink coffee? 💡💬
NAVIGATION
🍿 books, movies, tv & variety
see how comfortable i am shoving all four of these into one section? that's how little media i consumed.
i actually didn't read a single fucking book, nor did i watch any tv (that's standard behavior for me though tbh), nor did i pay attention to any particular variety and only gave a shit about a single survival show, so this is actually a list of things i'd like to get around to at some point. naturally because i'm me this likely means i won't be touching them at all and will simply yearn from a distance while slowly absorbing information about aforementioned items on my wish list until i know enough about it to not be interested anymore. so basically if you see something on this list don't expect me to get around to it anytime soon
✅ things i actually did watch
- shang-chi and the legend of the ten rings: i mean... i have to say that i don't really think while i watch movies hence why i'm more the type to write thinkpieces about books, so this movie was good to me despite having its own list of flaws and it's mostly because my brain was like "popcorn? check. bright lights and loud noises? check. adhd brain? sedated." — i wouldn't consider myself a marvel fan in the slightest even though i enjoy marvel movies. of course the thing that pissed me off about this movie is that the main character's sister was like "my brother abandoned me and i turned into a rich badass but i'm going to proceed to have absolutely no personality for the rest of this movie because i've done my part" like girl get yourself together goddamn the fuck is wrong with you?
- black widow: i don't even remember half of what happened in this movie y'all imma be real... it was okay though. i only went cause my ticket was free lol
- gp999: i don't think i've ever actually fully finished an episode of this show for the record but that's because they're too long for my brain to comprehend and simply DON'T include enough drama for me to really get through it all! that being said i plan on making a dw post about my thoughts on this show because well... it's certainly happening. any MYAH_FANS around here btw? listen i know she's literally babie and daughter and etc but her charisma is more believable than 90% of the girls on this show let's be real.
🔜 things i'd like to get around to within the century
- 📖 the iron widow: you can read the summary and ratings here but i seriously need to get my filthy hands on this book it's insaaane... it just looks good! there are some books where i read the summary and see it's a fantasy novel and i'm like "this probably isn't what it means to heal your inner child or whatever but i'm going to pretend that's how that works" because like... firstable i didn't read too many books with poc characters as a kid which is a can of worms i don't really care to unpack because it isn't that deep xx seriously though when i read this and livetweet to the tl... so sorry for the nerd i'll become.
- 📺 squid game: i'm probably never going to watch this btw. but it sounds great
- 📺 sex education: i can't remember where i stopped on this show but ace has been livetweeting it and it made me realize i actually miss how weird and crazy sex ed is... i really hope i get back around to it at some point because i've seriously just been sitting here with a netflix account, Not Watching Anything
- 🎬 venom: let there be carnage: i heard this isn't a good movie. i'm still going to watch it though because symbiotes are hot
- 🎫 i-land s2: i'm literally guy who watched s1 of i-land in JUNE aka like two weeks after i got into enhypen so it's crazy that they're already planning to throw the gg one out there especially because they're openly and shamelessly allowing 09z to audition like... guys i can barely stand that niki is 05z and myah is 06z i seriously think i'll fucking pass out if idols nine years younger than me start doing their thing. it's too soon. i'm 21. i need to enjoy my fucking YOUTH. anyway if former gp999 contestant YOONJIAH decides to pop in alongside (probably soon-to-be former) contestent youngeun as kia's been theorizing (or fantasizing about? you get it. same thing it's neither here nor there) i may actually start screaming and crying. i have some Thoughts on how i-land s2 might play out but i'll save that for the gp999 post lol
i wish i could get over my silly inability to actually watch things because it's annoying! i'd love to sit down and understand what my friends are talking about instead of being likeeee "LOLZ! no clue. <3" but also i seriously can't watch things because i feel like i'm wasting SO MUCH TIME if that makes sense... Did you guys know the mixture of adhd and anxiety can kill 400 amaltheas at any given moment? because it's true.
it's why i can only watch movies in a theater tbh. even with tv shows i'm like, There Are a Billion Other Things I Could be Doing Right Now, even if one of the billion things is just like STEP ONE: fuck around on social media while stressing out over everything you actually have to do. one day i'll get over myself but it probably won't be today! or tomorrow! or any day for the rest of 2021!
🎸 girls we are literally kpop fans (music)
⚡️ TOTAL SCROBBLES: 3,091
⚡️AVG SCROBBLES PER DAY: 103
1. purple kiss (504)
2. stayc (378)
3. tomorrow x together (281)
4. stray kids (170)
5. itzy (145)
6. day6 (124)
7. red velvet (91)
8. enhypen (83)
9. iu (66)
10. ateez (53)
fromis_9 & nct dream basically tied with ateez (52)
2. stayc (378)
3. tomorrow x together (281)
4. stray kids (170)
5. itzy (145)
6. day6 (124)
7. red velvet (91)
8. enhypen (83)
9. iu (66)
10. ateez (53)
fromis_9 & nct dream basically tied with ateez (52)
1. so why - pk (411)
2. stereotype - stayc (301)
3. lovesong - txt (153)
4. domino - skz (144)
5. queendom - rv (91)
6. wannabe - itzy (85)
7. zombie - pk (80)
8. i smile - day6 (77)
9. fever - enhypen (73)
10. lilac - iu (66)
2. stereotype - stayc (301)
3. lovesong - txt (153)
4. domino - skz (144)
5. queendom - rv (91)
6. wannabe - itzy (85)
7. zombie - pk (80)
8. i smile - day6 (77)
9. fever - enhypen (73)
10. lilac - iu (66)
actually a little speechless at how many times i managed to listen to hit song So WhY by up-and-coming rookie girl group Purple Kiss like what the hell went on for THAT to happen... seriously though it's SUCH a good song to me in that i can put it on repeat for hours and not get bored once. you WILL catch me lacking every time chaein starts the chorus off literally don't talk to me about it
my favorite girl groups (fromis_9, stayc, purple kiss and itzy) all came back this month which was a lot of serotonin for ME<3 but i'm so happy about fromis and stayc getting their first wins. music show wins aren't important etc etc but fromis have seriously been fighting in the trenches for their fucking LIVES for how fucking long now guys i really can't believe it. and THEY'RE SO TALENTED TOO IDGI!!! T__T anyone reading this needs to stan fromis if they don't as soon as possible or i'm going to die right now—just be like perfect kani who i care so so bad. btw i can't even remember if i discussed this in my august round-up but pledis taking over fromis so far has actually been pretty good like they have a WEVERSE... a way to COMMUNICATE with them in case they get thrown back in the dungeon... that's crazy. gotta settle for the bare minimum but i just hope it's actually consistent :') knowing pledis though... well we'll just have to wait and see.
ateez also had a comeback but i seriously don't care for deja vu like... at all. and even though i prefer eternal sunshine by far, i'm generally just disappointed by what atz gave us this time around, and the only song i really truly enjoy is rocky (which feels like hit song WIN 2.0 yfm). i don't think any of the songs are necessarily bad but both deja vu and eternal sunshine don't feel like proper title tracks at all... and the album didn't even come CLOSE to the fireworks one.
it's fine though! you know why? because we got this:
when ur boyfriend is a girlfriend and a boyfriend and a milf and a girlfriend and a
LIKE WE HAD TO SACRIFICE SO MUCH (read: san and wooyoung) TO GET THIS... he's so beautiful we seriously need to start being SEONGHWAFANS... speaking of woosan why did kq do them like that 😭 it's still so embarrassing to me what the hell especially after san pink hair and wooyoung's gender moment... LMFAOO i can't. making san look like a little boy while he's turning into satan's nephew on stage is a hatecrime i may never get over especially when he's given us other amazing hairstyles like wonderland/answer. baby i'll get you out of there keep breathing if you need help
i don't remember most of the comebacks that happened this month actually. but these are my rankings for the albums/title tracks i listened to this month:
1. HIDE & SEEK — Purple Kiss (title track: zombie)
2. STEREOTYPE — STAYC (title track: stereotype)
3. LO$ER=LO♡ER — TOMORROW X TOGETHER
4. NOEASY — Stray Kids (title track: thunderous)
5. Talk & Talk — FROMIS_9
6. Crazy in Love — ITZY (title track: loco)
7. 1/6 — SUNMI (title track: you can't sit with us)
2. STEREOTYPE — STAYC (title track: stereotype)
3. LO$ER=LO♡ER — TOMORROW X TOGETHER
4. NOEASY — Stray Kids (title track: thunderous)
5. Talk & Talk — FROMIS_9
6. Crazy in Love — ITZY (title track: loco)
7. 1/6 — SUNMI (title track: you can't sit with us)
girls... WHY did purple kiss achieve amal-tier AOTY within their first comeback.
i'm actually surprised at how well this album works out (ftr my rankings are so why >> zombie > cast pearls before swine > twinkle > 2am > zzz) because i wasn't super impressed with their debut—ponzona is a boring song to me (in fact i haven't listened to it since it came out xx) and the only song i still listen to is skip skip. so it feels GOOD that they have a solid sound within this comeback with an EXTREMELY catchy title track that i'm in danger of blasting and singing along to at any moment. tfw you can't wait to get home so you can play kpop in your car... :sobs: we're really in it now i'm never going to be free of this disease
i also like that it feels as though pk are following in oneus' footsteps with the no diggity to black mirror / ponzona to zombie-bie-bie-bie pipeline parallels YKNOW... not to compare them because i feel like purple kiss will hopefully be more famous than oneus are currently (no offense guys but this is just pure manifestation i need everyone to see the power yuki holds) but what is up with rbw groups and their flawless fucking discogs. anyone else thinking about ONEWE? they're insane.
i also enjoyed stayc's album SO MUCH? like i mean that's probably obvious because i listened to stereotype over 300 times but i think slayc are really slaying. it's been forever since i've seen a group with vocal colors that blend perfectly altogether, because even with purple kiss i'm like: Some of you stand out way too much and need to STOP singing after dosie because it's jarring. but slayc and fromis? the vocals are HARMONIOUS. chef's kiss actually. (are the SLAYC DYNAMIX nearly as good though...? minus sumin/sieun and seeun/yoon/isa triangulating aka why_is_isa_the_third i cannot provide you an answer for this that would be friendly.)
anyway my stereotype album ranking is definitely stereotype > i'll be there > slow down > complex. complex is a song i haven't listened to much tbh. actually i just checked and i've listened to it 7 times throughout the past month which is like Ok it probably shuffled but i still like it i promise... sorry but i'm literally just guy who can't get over i'll be there's isa/sieun chorus like YOU'RE KIDDING ME. i like that they let the "softer" vocals of stayc have their moment! like yes jayoon can kill those high notes with her power vocals and awful hairstyles but she's ALSO versatile enough to do her own thing in lower tones alongside sumin and yeeun and i like that a lot. it's just vibes
wrt loser=lover — absolutely top 5 kpop songs of the year, but at this point i'm honestly so detached from txt that it took me a while to get around to listening to it in the first place. and stray kids' album was okay, but definitely not my favorite thing from them. domino and ssick definitely take the top spots for me! idk it wasn't a particularly memorable comeback but that's probably because i'm seriously sick of skz doing some weird racist shit every few MONTHS at this point i can't believe i used to be a shooter for bang chan in 2019 like that's a level of self-disrespect i hope i'll never hit again (< guy who makes jokes about heeseung saying nigga). but also KFLKDSJFLJWELJF I'M STILL A LINOFAN 😭 it's called hypocrisy and only i am allowed to practice it.
itzy's comeback was um... it was okay. the bsides are definitely better. and sunmi's was also okay but i hope she never raps again that shit was embarrassing as hell to listen to. idec if she saw the hate she was getting like NOT EVERYONE CAN RAP AND THAT'S OKAY!!!
enhypen comeback soon btw. which like
WE GENUINELYYYY HAVE NOT HAD ENOUGH TIME BTWN ENHA_COVID_ERA AND ENHA_COMEBACK_ERA... i mean (as aforementioned sunny later pointed out) i know they're literally athletic young men but the turnaround time was so fast that i simply forgot they even got sick in september despite the last member being confirmed healthy like... what. two weeks ago? i don't even know man. i had to think so hard last night because i was like "well there's no way it happened THIS month... but it probably wasn't early august... Wait oh my god." that being said i'm excited for the comeback and i hope they stay healthy!!
scylla concept photos are my favorite for the record... legitimately kinda disappointed that they chose odysseus as the main one but i guess they wanted to stick to the summer vibe despite it being OCTOBER 😐 like exercise some common sense if you're going to delay the comeback so that it's closer to halloween than Actual Summertime let the concept photos reflect that... but maybe i seriously just have scylla_jungwon-itis because he's so beautiful in that green they put him in. AND SUNOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND NIKI!!!!!!!!!! shaking and sobbing as we speak.
wow i literally only talked about kpop. that's fine i barely listened to non-kpop anyway somehow. i forayed into caught a viiiibe babie are u comin for the riiiide but then i realized the original song actually fucking sucks and also why is willow's family like that? girl who doesn't know shit about western celebs: LOLLL JADA SMITH IS SO WEIRD GUYS... anyway that's enough for this section.
✏️ writing
AKA... lack thereof because fic-wise i didn't post anything besides ch2 of solar return and that was literally on september 1st so it's been a whole month. and like i understand that a lot of people are used to Taking a While but that could not be me i'm seriously just someone who likes to post quickly and be done with it and this fic idea is something i genuinely love to talk and think about, so hopefully as i get settled into school/come home from my trip i can get ch3 out :') i'm okay with taking some time on it though because well. i started school. so.
i've also had other fic ideas that i want to work on, but for some reason being inspired enough to want to write has been hard? idk why i'm saying 'fsr' it's because i'm stressed and tired 😭 fr out here like "how can i POSSIBLY write fic when i have to write an essay for my freshman-level theology class!!!" like girl first of all you are in a class with mostly first-years so shut the fuck up. second of all... shut the fuck up.
i want to write so much though. i'm thinking something for kinktober tbh like there's definitely no way in hell i'd be able to do multiple prompts, but hopefully it'll be a good way to ease my brain back into writing nsfw stuff? not that i necessarily want to stick to JUST writing hornyfic again the way i used to for a solid few months earlier in the year but i just think... jay and jake—[I'M SHOT] well you get my point. there are Thoughts that need to be put into fic.
au-wise i have a whole list of shit i'd love to get around to within the century. idk why but i'm just so obsessed with pjo enha au right now thanks to the current comeback vibe and like i knowww being into percy jackson as an adult is literally cringe and etc but i can't help it. i feel like pjo aus are super unreliable because everyone thinks their own opinion on godly parents is the correct one but i'm here to prove you all wrong with the simple fact that i'm actually the only correct person ever:
when no one understands that sometimes a reader has to be wrong so that i can continue to be right
heeseung: aphrodite
jay: athena
jake: poseidon
sunghoon: ares
sunoo: demeter
apprentice of hecate ^
jungwon: hades
niki: hermes
jay: athena
jake: poseidon
sunghoon: ares
sunoo: demeter
apprentice of hecate ^
jungwon: hades
niki: hermes
like what is there to say about this list... it's accurate it's real it provides for character development in some aspects (aka sunghoon_ares I'm Not a Fighter arc which is literally so frankzhang it's actually hilarious but i'm choosing not to unpack that for now). TBHHHH idk why i'm discussing this au like it's something i'm ACTUALLY going to write. because unless my reverse manifestation works it isn't going to happen. but it's fun to think about!
speaking of aus that must not be named i literally have a jakehoon dq9 au in here wherein sunghoon's a traveling minstrel and jake's a solitary ranger with like multiple wolf pets. and i'm going to be fully real with you guys that au is just there as a backdrop to copious amounts of hypothetical porn but it's also about the mental image of sunghoon in a dancer's dress because i'm psychologically ill. and the rightsunghoon of it all [i'm shot again] it's just... well i hope it writes itself someday.
tldr: i hope i post a fic and/or update solar return soon because this drought is driving the girls (me) crazyyyyy. i'm about to renounce my own writer status at this point!
dreamwidth-wise though i've definitely ummm posted quite a bit:
- enhypen dynamix discussion
- insane_shipping
- wip post (sunjakehoon)
- 0x1 thoughts
- the gg rps dilemma
- enhypen chart database
WELL. I GUESS WE KNOW WHY I DIDN'T WRITE FIC NOW
this is definitely collectively over 10k words especially bc the enha ship post was so fucking long and i'm just. GIRLLLL... i'm a dw user i can't help it. seriously though i think i'm enjoying this site especially now that i've moved accounts for reasons and i'm like. who is going to stop me from being unhinged!!!!! until i eventually die i'm going to continue being this way and you all have to deal with it.
in fact i have two extremely long posts in the works lol... one for my favorite tropes and one about vedic nakshatras for infodumping purposes and to help my fwiends out as we study essentially without resources because everything is biased and/or 1-dimensional. of course because i have so much school i might be slow on these! but that's fine i'm having fun and that's what matters :) [my hands, sick and tired of all the typing: Mother please take just one fucking break...]
🏫 school
from august monthly round-up:
THE RUMORS ARE TRUE: AMAL IS ON HER LAST YEAR OF NURSING SCHOOL❗️actually this is something so surreal to me still like &$&#$*#@ i can't believe it but i probably should start believing it because i've literally been in colorado for my nursing class FOR TWO WEEKS NOW. LOLLL IT'S JUST CRAZY TO ME
when i say i've been stressed for over a year and a half now trying to make sure i graduate on time i'm being fully serious. and for the record that isn't a worry that'll magically disappear—i still have to get a 78% or higher on all of my classes—but like... it just feels good to be at a point where i'm confident i can do well if i just Work Hard (a foreign concept to me but STILL!!) lol. which i guess subscribes to a capitalistic mindset but :/ i just want to move out. so... yeah.
anyway being in colorado has been interesting? and by that i mean extremely boring because there's not much to do unless you wanna do outdoorsy stuff of which i have no interest in because like. we're doing clinical rotations you are NOT gonna catch me slippin on a hiking trip both literally and spiritually yfm. lol so my daily schedule has consisted of getting coffee and either fucking around or attempting to get work done. what really makes life good is the fact that i'm not with my family (even though my mom's still being a pain in the ass<3)... such a breath of fresh air i'm seriously not ready to go back yet!
otherwise... i've got two essays and two quizzes to do this weekend 😅 should probably be doing that instead of typing this but i'd like to get it out of the way. i say this like i wouldn't just work on other dw posts if i didn't have this one to do
🌻 the vibes
like i said this month was an 8/10 and i'm like... kind of weirded out by how september went for me in general? like there were definitely downsides and i think that if anyone else had the month i had they'd rate it lower than an 8 but because i'm me aka girl who had the most stressful summer ever september was a full W for me TBH
this overlaps into the school section ofc but the fact that we get an in-person experience is really nice to me because well. i'm a senior who would like to experience normalcy for at least one semester—but that being said i'm still deeply worried we're going to go back online ofc especially because i literally got a contact tracing notification JUST YESTERDAY telling me i might've come into contact with someone who tested positive and it's just like damn 😭😭😭 not even a whole month without a covid scare? although tbh as i told koko i'm surprised we made it this far considering it's like three people to a hotel room and we're literally working in a hospital... screams it was bound to happen at some point. but that being said i got tested early this morning so i hope i'm in the clear :')
of course a majority of the reason as to why i want to stay in-person as long as possible is because i actually managed to make a shit ton of acquaintances and a couple of friends (labeled as such only because i have a #criteria for friendships lolz) because there's a pretty big somali + muslim + hijabi population at this school and all the bipoc here are focused on making SURE they don't make any white friends which is hilarious... like i realized this the other night but i also haven't made a single white friend yet and that's beautiful to me.
my entire travel group (consisting of 6 people in total) is somali and that's beautiful to me but there's already been enough drama to fracture us into two groups aka Hotel Room 1 and Hotel Room 2 LOLLLL i really like the two girls i'm with though. and like... well if you've paid any attention to my existence for the past few weeks you'll know about my AWFUL and mostly-mutual crush on one of the girls which is like &@$#JDJSLGHSLS i won't get into it today. just know i'm currently thinking of her as always❤️ But anyway.
it just feels great to have people i can RELATE to and TALK to without fearing i'm being too different or whatever like that is SUUUUCH a cringe emotion to express especially considering i can't see myself being friends with 90% of these girls in the long-term but damn. the friends i HAVE made have been great so far and that's nice to me!
also i briefly mentioned coffee in the school section and well...
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everyone on friend tl: ohmagawd amal's new coffee fixation is SOOO CUTE 🥺🥺
me: SO BECOMING ADDICTED TO CAFFEINE IS ENDEARING TO YOU?
no but i've actually found a life hack to drinking coffee and it only took an entire 21 years of my LIFE to get around to this discovery. the life hack in question is literally just making my coffee as sweet as possible for the record so it's less of a life hack and more of a life destroyer and also i seriously need to stop drinking this nearly every day but... i can't. i almost considered getting it again yesterday guys my crush had to be like "GIRL WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU" ldmslkjfwljwh. and for the record i got her into coffee too but she thinks i'm a piece of shit for liking it iced.
my order, you ask? [smiles nervously] grande iced vanilla pumpkin spice latte with extra caramel drizzle.
overall though i feel like i'm able to enjoy life a LITTLE more even if i'm still super stressed out lolz. praying for a negative result on my covid test, and a good october in general! i say this like mercury isn't currently retrograde in my 12th house but what can we do. at least it objectively isn't as bad as the six month aries mars retrograde we had last fall. find solace in the little things, my friends!
for now i'll be mourning the fact that my homoerotic shared_space 2wk trip with my crush and some other girl (JK I LOVE HER TOO) is coming to a close... it was good while it lasted.
happy spooky szn! :D
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Date: 2021-10-04 08:18 am (UTC)I'M CURIOUS AS TO WHAT YOUR THOUGHTS ON ATEEZ NEW HAIR IS (ftr it's light pink seonghwa, black woosangjooong, wheat(?) blond yunho, DARK GREY MINGI<333, dark blue san, jongho's just vibing as always) because damn we've been having it rough these past couple months huh
looking forward to the gp999 post + rly do hope u get ur hands on iron widow soon i love nerd amal and ik we always have her on the tl but i particularly miss BOOK nerd amal so <333 love u loads babe i am literally gonna binge-watch 'follow fromis_9' now
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Date: 2021-10-04 10:33 pm (UTC)i'm actually obsessed with their new hair colors because i was sick of wooyoung's. and also hongjoong with black hair is enough to kill several amals if you weren't aware. i think the dark blue on san takes away from how shitty his haircut is too so i am marginally more okay with it... Only marginally of course.
I CAN'T WAIT TO READ IRON WIDOW!!!! and i'm so excited to see more of your fromis_9 thoughts ilysm as always<3 thank you for commenting bby<333